Hello Lovely Adventurer,
Today I am writing about something that I had no intentions of writing about this morning when I got out of bed, but as I was catching up on my rss feed this morning I read this post by my friend Brandy. She is currently running a series of gratitude posts before the imminent arrival of her baby boy.
And it had me in tears. Thinking about the complex relationship between a Mama and daughter. And it made me want to write about my Mama and how grateful I am for her.
The thing that struck me most in Brandy’s post was when she wrote, “I take my mom for granted in so many ways. I concentrate on how we’re different.”
And I know that even though I try to tell my Mama that I love her on a daily basis, I take her for granted too. And I really believe it is so important for those we value and love to know how much they mean to us. Not just to know that they are important, but to know why they are important.
My Mama has always been my advocate, sounding board and my biggest cheerleader.
When I was little, if you’d asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I would’ve said that I want to be just like my Mum: a beauty-full, joy-filled woman, who is creative and talented and so strong. A woman who people are naturally drawn to, because she makes them feel special and loved.
She instilled in me an unshakeable belief that anything was possible. That I could never dream too big. And she also taught me that I could never make any mistake big enough to stop her loving me. Nothing could ever be so bad that it couldn’t be undone or put right. I have always known her unconditional love.
My entire life we have been so close. I am one of those lucky ones who is able to say that she is my Mum and also my friend. Of course, we push each other’s buttons sometimes, but we genuinely enjoy each other’s company.
Since becoming a Mama myself, our relationship has changed. Our ties have deepened, as I come to understand her in a way that could only happen once I became a parent myself. I recognise her humanity and vulnerability now in a way that I never could have foreseen. I understand the fierce love she has for me, because it is inside me now.
Mama, I am so grateful for all that you have made me. For all that you have taught me. For all the moments that we have shared together. I want you to know that I have always felt your unconditional love and your strength behind me and because of that I know that my life will be filled with adventure and possibility.
I hope that one day the girls will be able to say the same about me. If so, I will feel as though I have succeeded.
You are an amazing woman and I am so lucky that you are my Mama. I hope you know that.